humm...just remembered about spanish. damn. must finish it. anyways, i just realized something. I actually found talking about RO to be interesting. HUMM. I just realized how fricking close we are to 91st [when i was talking to Pim during spanish] and how this year was just so ... different? Everybody's trying to get ahead, working and just worrying about things -- all for RO. Isn't that a funny concept? How some people just strived to get somethings, how somethings should be changed and how some just fell behind. Someday, we'll all look back at this crap and just you guys will just laugh your butts off.

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Mood: I lost my appetite. Actually, I've lost all faith in guys. Completely. No, i'm not turning into a lesbian if that's what you are thinking. But seriously, all the guys I know turn out to be not what they were when i first met them. It's almost 12 and here I am..slacking off my essay to type on Blogger. You know, i sometimes wonder how I would survive without this thing. It's not like some people's xanga where they just type random stuff and then leave it at that. I don't know why, but if this blog went permantantly down, I'll feel empty without it. [kind of sappy isn't it?]

I think that's why I even use a blog at all and not something else like a notebook. Who feels comfortable writing in a notebook? Eh. Maybe it's just me, but this is home. :] It's not interconnected and I feel like I'm the only one reading it [which is a good thing!]. Xanga is so easily distributed and read that it turns impersonal. okay. I'm going off into a rut here. Sorry about that. i think this is one of the first entry where i'm talking about this subject. *ponders and shrugs* Who needs them anyways? it's always something or another with them.

for the record: it isn't who you guys are thinking this is about. so fudger off-er
I wish we went back to the way we were before we've got so comfortable around each other. Now i don't even know what to feel anymore about this. I think i'm having one of these Screw off feelings.
According to my calculation from a newspaper: i'm the jealous type. Am i really?
cos,
that would suck majorly. Am I really a jealous type of person. Maybe, truthfully I think I know this answer: yes. Do I want to just eliminate any type of competition? sometimes. Should I just speak up?: i dont know.



is this even going to be posted?: probably not.